This is a creative thoughtful post- I’ve done these before and I like them. But to mix it up I added a little OTTD to go along with it.
You do not exist anymore and I’m letting myself go.
Looking back I wonder what girl was I to you. The girl you spent a few nights with. The girl who you spent months with road tripping. Knowing who you were and who I was with you. The conversations we had, the nights we spend together. Was I the girl I thought I was to you.
The girl who was your best friend. The girl you to talk to at the end of the night. The girl who let you be whoever you wanted to be. Let you go off with your friends; she wouldn’t care. The girl you adored. The girl who only wanted your company but that was too much to ask. I wasn’t that girl to you.
But, you weren’t the guy either. The guy that gave reassurance and confidence, saying “fuck them” when I couldn’t. The guy I felt like me around you. A guy where I didn’t think twice about how to act around. A proud man for you got that girl that every guy could have had.
You lost that girl. You lost her when you walked right out at 3am like it was that easy. You lost her the minute you decided to call her up to talk for hours, making her feel like you were back. But then you turned around and gave her the thumbs up. You lost her the minute you decided she was not worth the fight. You lost her when you made her feel so damn worthless. You lost her when she realize she shouldn’t be treated like that. I’m that girl.
I’m that girl and it’s the girl you could never had. I’m done missing the guy you never were. Because to be the guy you were to me, I had to be that girl to you. So I’m letting myself go from you, from all of you. You do not exist anymore and I’m letting myself go.
Because, I’m not that girl, anymore.
Jumper: Zara (months old)
Jeans: Topshop (Jamie Jeans)
Fish tights: Pennys
necklace: forever 21 (years ago)
Hair: Lo’real colour-purple
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