I made it into a crop top.

I got this top as a gift from my an X. I laughed at it when I got it because it was 100% me and there was a boy who gave it to me. He was the first to understand me. Him giving me this shirt reinsured my thought that he really did get me. However,  when we broke up I made it into a crop top because I still liked the shirt, it still was me and our break up wasn’t going to take that away. He wasn’t going to take that away from me. So this shirt became a metaphor for not only moving on from him, our break up, but how I’d overcome it.

Breakups are hard, sometimes even painful, you can seem so lost and confused. Like apart of you is missing. But your still there, you are still you and that person never took that away from you.

I was never going to be the person I am today if I was still with him.

I began to wear the shirt he gave me, that was now made into a crop top, all the time. A whole year after our break up I wore that shirt, not to remember him. His name would come into the mind of the person who gave it to me, but I remind myself that ” I made it into a crop top.”  Making it into a crop top was for me to remake myself after this breakup. I new I was never going to be the same person I was with him without him nor did I want to be, and I wasn’t going to be the same person before him either. You can never go back from things or people that changed your life. And I couldn’t change the shirt that was me however I could make it into a crop top! So I wore the shirt as I made myself. The one thing I got out of this shirt did not only do I like wearing this shirt because it’s me, but I would have never made it into a crop top if I was still with him. And I am thankful.

 

Maybe the one thing we need to do when in a break up just makes it into a crop top!

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