I am becoming a woman I never thought I’d be. I never knew who I’d become, however, I did think that I would have done what you were supposed to do. As I grew up, going through high school, going to college, backpacking through Europe, and somewhere along the way I’ve become a different version of myself. Suddenly, I had new goals and ambitions. I thought 30 would be the year I’d slow down, yet as I’m getting closer, I do not see that happening. I see myself getting closer to the woman I found.
Somewhere along the way I’ve become a different version of myself.
I’ve always been a wild, talkative, headstrong, and kind person. Yet, I was probably too crazy for the boys. I’ve never felt that I was going to settle for any boy. Sometimes I felt the boys I thought were worth it, my passion and determination were too much for them. Younger self couldn’t handle her emotions or even know who she was, I thought I had to change to be like. At the same time, I knew who I wasn’t going to be. But somehow I found myself because these things happened. The girl who was picked on for talking too much now is a woman who has no fear of talking. I have grown into my wildness, and I don’t see myself settling her down for anything or anyone who wouldn’t be able to keep up with this wild winged woman.
When I set my mind to something there is no stopping me
This woman I am today I never saw her coming, but she’s here. I often wonder where she came from was she created by others or was she formed by me. She’s been through a lot, been broken but I am the one who put her back together. She is still flawed and a little unsure. I am still trying to figure out where can her imagination soar and where she can just be herself. I always thought she would be tall, but I am still only 5’4″. She’s still growing, I know this because I am not done becoming this woman I want to be. I hope she’s more confident and doesn’t second-guess herself, that she feels even more like a woman and good in her own skin. And that she will settle in her own time and in her own way.
These woman I become and we never saw coming were formed by what I’ve been through, where I’ve been, the people I’ve met have impacted me.
This woman I have become is a different version of myself that is a little unexpected, but I love her.